Elevator behavior.

We have four elevators in our house, and when I go to them, and if I hear someone's footsteps far behind, I start to accelerate strongly, almost run. And when I go to the elevators, I frantically press all the call buttons, constantly listening to the steps, are they far away?
And then the elevator arrives, the doors have not yet opened, and I already squeeze in, quickly press the button to close the doors, and only after that I dial my floor.
When the doors close, then I hear the steps getting louder and louder, someone is almost approaching the elevator. I have a panic, I madly shut up this button for closing the doors, and in my head there are thoughts: "faster, faster, blah, close already, it's been so long!" And when the doors close practically in front of a person's nose, and he does not have time to enter, then I lean against the wall and exhale: "Well, everything, I did it, thank God!" There is a satisfied smile on my face, and I'm alone, like a winner in a big elevator, going to my floor.
Well, if for the place of steps I hear children's crying for the entire entrance, then all my emotions only intensify and I even more want to have time to jump into one in the elevator and leave. There the panic is stronger, pressing the buttons even more convulsively, as if it was not a child crying, but a monster growling.
Well, if I didn’t have time to take the elevator to one, and the person next to me prevented the doors from closing and climbed into my elevator, then I have a feeling of breaking off.
I wrote this because I'm wondering if anyone else here suffers from this bullshit?