Pathological apathy
The people that I want to share a feature that has always been peculiar to me, and the last time significantly increased. Or hell.... the problem.... although, how can you call a problem that does not cause discomfort?Shorter! All my life I was not interested in what is interesting to most people. It all started in childhood. Everyone liked to play with cars, I don't. The parents bought them, piled high, but I didn't duplan what the buzz roll it on the floor and imagine that it's true? Exactly like and never liked to walk. My parents said - go for a walk! Or peers - walk! I don't understand: where will I go when I don't have a specific goal? Just walk down the street? Why? Because walking is the only way of transporting your body from point A to point B. For this, the parents sometimes gave me a job (to get bread), so I was able to go outside. Also I never understood what joy in the fellowship as such? Because communication is just a means of transmitting information do you know what is needed, said what they wanted and .... all! How can I communicate just for the sake of communication? Bored of the same? What am I going anybody say, if I expect nothing from him to know and for him I don't have the right information? In this last respect, I was always accused that I quickly end the conversation and I didn't understand what the claim? I told you what you wanted, why continue talking?
Then my apathy grew with me. All men love cars, I don't. Machines are exactly. Everyone is looking to some cool tachilu: Wow! See, this is BMW X6! What a body! What a beauty! And I look not vduplyaesh, what they enjoy? Well, the car.... Well, 4 wheels on it, ride it.... Well, beautiful (although to be honest, nowadays all the cars look the same - like soap)..... But then what? I sat, drove, and went out. I just stare at her? I and the Cossack with the same success could be reached, and the result would be the same!
By the way, was this story: I was returning home late, got out of the subway, to the house we still have to go, and ground transport is not running, you will have the car to catch. At metro in ryadochek are fish, approach first, ask: like, how much area to ride? He says - 300 rubles, why I say: che so much? Then go 10 minutes! (it was 2008, at that time expensive) And he told me: what a ride! Tajiks Zhiguli cheaper! I was more you went to the Tajiks and drove to the house for 80 rubles. On the road to thinking: what durachok? Time - 2 a.m. I have to drive home (I was drunk), not once do I bolt the machine to go! Yes, even on the Mare, the main thing to get home! Here's how to understand it? And because someone went with him, once worth! That is, someone willing to pay triple that just for the make of the car? Not understand.....
And the story continues! On past cars I also had a side of the gadgets I bought a phone and went with him 10 years until he down not out, and now bought another and will use it while working. What's the difference - Apple or not? Moreover, the functions my phone has all that and an expensive tube to pay for what? For the brand? Not interested in great football, which makes everything scream. And a few times I seriously tried to watch on TV and even once was at the match..... All the times went running out. Well, men running around on the field and chase the ball well, got them in the gate, and where the laugh that you need? Here I can't understand what's so interesting?
In the end, the fascination I had, but little - loved movies, because this little life, loved the game, because it is a kind of simulation of life. The number was only those from which you can benefit in life (Boxing, knife throwing, shooting) and the competition never went, and why? Well I learned to shoot and all, the goal is achieved. And what for to me someone to prove that I'm better than him in this matter? Let him be a better somebody else, what do I care! And so in all. From the post of chief at the time refused. They're like, Hey! Well this is cool! And I said, salary is higher? - no. Vacation longer? - no. No bonuses, and hemorrhoids will be added, and why?
But recently generally ceased to evoke joy. Now I do not care! As mentioned in the famous movie trying to want to want something)) does anyone had something similar?
Dumpling goodness
the idea of the ass to shreds will tear (their own and others)
He admitted.
Russian_Lawyer
Work is work, anywhere from it not to go. Find something interesting for yourself - foreign language, mathematics, physics, electronics, books, etc. - each has its own interests.
Russian_Lawyer
Try to aim to possess the best woman. This will have to go through a lot of women, a huge mass which will to blow you off. This should be an interesting game. Basic instinct needs to maintain interest throughout the game. But during the game you will begin to seek what had not sought. Helped me. It was something like that, just like you.
Dumpling goodness
maybe))
Versor
so about that and speech that do not have them, looking for.... early shoot loved, now cooled, the shit movie loved - sick.... looking for
Devil208
which one is the best?))
Russian_Lawyer
That which you have eye drops first thing. Among hundreds of others on the street that's what you want. So try to take it. It will not be easy, but the game will be interesting. And have through the crowds to cross. You're trying to understand how to do it. Learn a lot in the process. Interesting topic. Just a short spring. So for spring I came up with the lesson) And there, staring, and motivation, will and desire to live!
Vanya Rygalov
Well, Yes. One of the best motivators, I think)
Russian_Lawyer
Anyone had something similar?
Was.And to dick.In my childhood, too, there were moments when mom tried to walk send,but I didn't want.Football FSUs,FSUs alcohol,drugs, never tried and don't want to.Cars FSUs.Partying,noisy places FSUs.Even holidays FSUs.Some kind of murderous indifference to many things.The only benefit from it,so it's from stress.Some people go crazy children out of the Windows throw.And I any crises or POH.Someone in such situations, the nails biting,the hair on the ass laughs,but I am calm as a boa,POH.South sea — POH.But with old friends really want to see.As well really want to jump with a parachute.
Other people's money do not believe POH.People are not interested in the POH.If people talk about themselves,then so be it.If not, do not climb POH.Gossip POH:where someone goes,who is sleeping with whom,who is drunk, or old, but do not care with a high steeple.
The need to communicate is weak.
[Denis]
In,in,in,in!)) So)) And sometimes tried to force myself to enjoy the common sweet - comes out. A year ago, especially on the mixer went (never went): everyone is happy - I'm sitting and bored, drunk - miss, began to scratch with all - tired. And as always))
Devil208
so not falling anyone, infection))
I think if you do not care at all and nothing is of interest, it is better to become addicted to alcohol. Many people know that has found for a bottle of vodka. And then get used to and not a day can spend drinking, drunk - it will be your natural state.
Plus the fact that you have a purpose in life, I will say that you will find the meaning of life. Where to get money to drink for you will be the number one concern, and nothing else will need. And when you look at life through glass, you will see many new things that usually would not have noticed.
Podvipodvertov
Alcohol in excess it causes me a gag reflex.Never in my life did not get drunk,although there were moments of occasional excessive drinking to unconsciousness.After such a day was cleaning the stomach and rest of the day
Russian_Lawyer
Can not be that you do not look for a single girl who is to meet you and she didn't like me. If so - then either you are not worth it, or all is much deeper. Go see a psychologist. You asked for advice just hoping to speak at the forum or do you want to change something? Find a psychologist and make an appointment to see him.
Russian_Lawyer
But on women I staring.Nothing you can do about it,although its there.But do not change
[Denis]
And not have anything to do with it)) Against nature not trample. Staring - then everything is fine.
In my life about a similar situation. From childhood especially had no interest in what liked peers - found hobby, only gaming, music and movies.
Later, when I began to understand the PC, a new hobby, and along with the headache, still relevant today - to dig in pieces of iron and to do the upgrade.
At the same time, to other devices I care - doesn't care about phones, tablets and other things, around which is built a cult in modern society.
Then I became addicted to Smoking and alcohol - you like to drink either alone or with selected friends, which can lead to long philosophical conversations on any topic. Most others I despise.
Otherwise, you feel a complete indifference to life - many years ago I decided I want to live as a hermit in isolation, caring only about themselves and their own interests.
You could stand to lose the most expensive and despair. All suggest. There is a lot of different interests, for example, self-hatred,guilt, sessions strangulation, irrigation, pillows, all the free time you can spend in a fantasy world where everything went wrong as it happened.
warp 37
were thought - how cool to live in a cabin in the woods
the endless misanthropy of the black cosmos
advises the drugs, then trouble.... my friend, Yes you are the bad guy)) but you, with the triviality of their thinking, forget the obvious fact - those who, all to a side, there's nothing too expensive, and therefore nothing to lose.
Devil208
Staring - then everything is fine.
Thank you,doctor))).I'm happy that I'm healthy))))
Russian_Lawyer
And do you have any parents? With this apathy to know how you feel about them? And how much they matter to you?