Pathological apathy

The people that I want to share a feature that has always been peculiar to me, and the last time significantly increased. Or hell.... the problem.... although, how can you call a problem that does not cause discomfort?

Shorter! All my life I was not interested in what is interesting to most people. It all started in childhood. Everyone liked to play with cars, I don't. The parents bought them, piled high, but I didn't duplan what the buzz roll it on the floor and imagine that it's true? Exactly like and never liked to walk. My parents said - go for a walk! Or peers - walk! I don't understand: where will I go when I don't have a specific goal? Just walk down the street? Why? Because walking is the only way of transporting your body from point A to point B. For this, the parents sometimes gave me a job (to get bread), so I was able to go outside. Also I never understood what joy in the fellowship as such? Because communication is just a means of transmitting information do you know what is needed, said what they wanted and .... all! How can I communicate just for the sake of communication? Bored of the same? What am I going anybody say, if I expect nothing from him to know and for him I don't have the right information? In this last respect, I was always accused that I quickly end the conversation and I didn't understand what the claim? I told you what you wanted, why continue talking?

Then my apathy grew with me. All men love cars, I don't. Machines are exactly. Everyone is looking to some cool tachilu: Wow! See, this is BMW X6! What a body! What a beauty! And I look not vduplyaesh, what they enjoy? Well, the car.... Well, 4 wheels on it, ride it.... Well, beautiful (although to be honest, nowadays all the cars look the same - like soap)..... But then what? I sat, drove, and went out. I just stare at her? I and the Cossack with the same success could be reached, and the result would be the same!

By the way, was this story: I was returning home late, got out of the subway, to the house we still have to go, and ground transport is not running, you will have the car to catch. At metro in ryadochek are fish, approach first, ask: like, how much area to ride? He says - 300 rubles, why I say: che so much? Then go 10 minutes! (it was 2008, at that time expensive) And he told me: what a ride! Tajiks Zhiguli cheaper! I was more you went to the Tajiks and drove to the house for 80 rubles. On the road to thinking: what durachok? Time - 2 a.m. I have to drive home (I was drunk), not once do I bolt the machine to go! Yes, even on the Mare, the main thing to get home! Here's how to understand it? And because someone went with him, once worth! That is, someone willing to pay triple that just for the make of the car? Not understand.....

And the story continues! On past cars I also had a side of the gadgets I bought a phone and went with him 10 years until he down not out, and now bought another and will use it while working. What's the difference - Apple or not? Moreover, the functions my phone has all that and an expensive tube to pay for what? For the brand? Not interested in great football, which makes everything scream. And a few times I seriously tried to watch on TV and even once was at the match..... All the times went running out. Well, men running around on the field and chase the ball well, got them in the gate, and where the laugh that you need? Here I can't understand what's so interesting?

In the end, the fascination I had, but little - loved movies, because this little life, loved the game, because it is a kind of simulation of life. The number was only those from which you can benefit in life (Boxing, knife throwing, shooting) and the competition never went, and why? Well I learned to shoot and all, the goal is achieved. And what for to me someone to prove that I'm better than him in this matter? Let him be a better somebody else, what do I care! And so in all. From the post of chief at the time refused. They're like, Hey! Well this is cool! And I said, salary is higher? - no. Vacation longer? - no. No bonuses, and hemorrhoids will be added, and why?

But recently generally ceased to evoke joy. Now I do not care! As mentioned in the famous movie trying to want to want something)) does anyone had something similar?